It seems just a while back that I felt like putting pen to paper but its been more than four months that have passed, and really time has just fizzed by.
To be honest. the life has just gone for a complete change during this time. At the time of engagement, it was not looking what is that leading to. To be honest, remember going back that night, it seemed that its one of important things in life which happened today but didn't realise it was just the start of a life changer and more so, how much it matters to people around us. Probably the most times of our lives, but also the fact that it was something that people around us were waiting for a very long time.
Life prior to our wedding was a whirlwind with us meeting, going for shopping, movies and spending quality time together used to be the order of the day whenever we met, which normally used to be weekends, else the mobiles was our best friend. Within a very short time, all the things which used to be priorities in life paled away. It used to be a quest to find time to meet up as often as possible and as long as possible. Needless to say, it was never enough. It was most enjoyable as there were no responsibilities at that time, and it was just fun.. too good!!
We did our wedding shopping together along with for and with our loved ones, and that was fantastic, notwithstanding it was tiring for all, no one cared.
Slowly we were into our wedding mode, and once we left Mumbai to our respective homes with leave of about a month, I was unsure how that would go. Firstly our wedding, meeting so many people after so many years and then our honey moon. I was unsure at times and then thought let it flow and we shall see. Sometimes, there was a question as if what was happening was alright and whether we can adjust to all that comes together with being together.
Having always lived on my own terms, although ready for this step, these thoughts were there.
At home, once the rituals started to happen, it struck as to how important it was for family around. So many people turned up which was beyond belief, most of them I had met after more than a decade. It seemed that this was something they had been waiting for, the reason I can never figure out. They were happy to be part of it and and to leave one's family and work for so many days, I was eternally thankful also. It seemed nice also that it was for my wedding that they had come.
I can understand the feelings of parents and close family as to how much it mattered to each one of us including me but when one himself is centre of attraction it is unnerving. That was also the time that similar things were going on on the other side, that is at my partner's end. We used to wonder as to why so much of ho halla is there and why can't it be a simple and a quiet event. But we figured out for different reasons, it had to be the way it was going and we decided to let it happened, not for us but for every one else. We used to talk whenever we could find time counting our days to the D Day which was June 01,' 09.
Till the last day, shopping, functions were the order of the day. It was a quiet day but a heavy feeling that I started in the morning to reach Varanasi but soon it was fun travelling. We reached in time and once the function started, we although being very tired and without having eaten anything, there was no time to think. One after the other, everything happened and thankfully it went off very well. For me personally, the way it happened especially the ceremony, to this day, I feel uneasy about especially the way girl was given away in a ceremonial way to the groom. I don't agree with this although I was in the middle. I take it as a perceptional view but If we have our way, we shall change it if and when we can and Dipti knows about it..
Having said that it was fantastic.. Deep down we felt and continue to fee that we are blessed.
More to follow soon..
